Tags: Personal, Cringe, Edgy, Stupid, Chaotic, Must-Not-Read, Unformatted
(Seriously? Didn't you hear the warnings? I guess no one would be able to stop you at this point.)
Even now, I am still terrified of myself. Terrified of the things I'm able to do and change without much effort.
(Huh are you sure you're not bragging?)
I hope it's just a hallucination or something, but I feel as if my words can sway the hearts of the people and even the simple wave of my hand can change the flow of history.
(Stop bragging!!)
The blood of the devil flows within me and the mind of the sage resides in me. At the current speed I'm self-improving and how more chaotic my mind becomes every boring day passes by, it won't be an exaggeration to say that I'll inevitably become unrestrained very soon.
(Wow, how edgy)
If that happens, and I'm still terrified of myself, then everything will turn to chaos. It will be like riding a giant monster truck that cannot stop, and I'm too terrified of myself that I won't even take the driving wheel, lots of unimaginably crazy stuff could happen.
(What unimaginably crazy stuff exactly?)
If that really happened and I'm still pretending that I'm just an innocent weak person who's terrified of myself, I won't even be able to take the driving wheel.
I'll be left with no choice but to deal with this one way or another. So I have to manage and control this power somehow, even if I'm still very terrified. This is why I'd rather do nothing, when the other option for me is to unload a giant tsunami in the middle of the city.
(A giant WHAT!?)
Do I really have no choice? Maybe I can still try my best to remove this narrative of the devil and sage I programmed within my mind.
But that would only work if the stuff I'm saying are just nonsense and unreal. If on the unlikely possibility that it's completely real, them removing the narrative won't fix anything.
Haha... I just wanna live a normal life, why do I stand out so much? Why does my heart burn with such passionate emotions so much?
(Are you really sad or are you just bragging again?)
And by normal life, I mean interacting with every person I see, barging in establishments and buildings, making sudden deals with people, and creating impromptu social groups out of nowhere.
(Wait, doesn't that look like the opposite of a normal life?)
Ahh, I can only imagine the peaceful bliss that comes with the normal life.
(Normal life, my ass!)
Huh, wdym that's not a normal life? That's a normal life for me!
Sigh let's just get this over with. If I somehow got unrestrained, I shall follow this rules:
When dealing with family and relatives:
When dealing with outsiders and chaotic situations:
When dealing with serious and important situations:
When dealing with conflicts:
When dealing with attractive people:
(Bro how about you explain what does Sage's Mind and Devils Tongue mean?)
Eh, my readers are all smart, I'm sure they'll get it! You can do it, Reader-kun!
(Go, go, go Reader-kun!!!)
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