According to a series of my failed experiments, online friendships cannot be built on online chat conversations alone. It is too fragile to build online friendships just from that, but strong real-life friendships can be build real-life conversations alone.
According to another series of experiments, showing our entire article website to anyone we converse with despite how smart they are, *will always make them speechless and stop talking. Likewise, any sudden revelations without foreshadowing or build-up are guaranteed to make people shocked and speechless that they ignore you.
According to millions of mental simulations, whatever possibility and path we take to freedom, the balance of power will break and our family would be gravely affected. Freedom demands blood, there's no way to assert nor reclaim it without spilling any blood.
Everyone knows that when someone interacts and talks with you, they want or need something, but very few people knows that just because someone interacts with you doesn't necessarily mean they want to take something away from you. Kindness and generosity exist, not everyone is evil.
Your goal in the first few seconds of every new conversation then, is to show that you have something offer, something to give to them, to prove to them that good people still exist in this world, and that you are one of them.
Tell them or notify them your intentions from the very start but try to be very subtle about it — tell it on body language and tone. Only tell them about your hidden intentions if they still don't trust you or if they really insist to know.
Never pretend to be a perfectly nice person, because those type of people are also the most suspiciously dangerous people.
You only have a few seconds to make the first impression, introduce yourself, set expectations, and be likeable at the same time.
Meh. Skeptical people are going to be skeptical. Set boundaries, you don't have to prove anything to anyone, unless you want to.
Time is generous to those who live meaningfully, but abandons those who are always in a rush to escape reality. If you can't make every second count, then make every hour count. If you can't make every hour count, then make your day count. Ensure that every movement and action you made has meaning, purpose, and value.
"Because you don't care." I've heard it again. I keep hearing it. Why does it matter? Why must I care? Everyone who utters that phrase is nothing but mere hypocrites and liars. Did you even cared for me in the first place? I am not obliged to care for you nor anyone else.
What a shitty phrase, I'll probably keep hearing it hundred thousand more times in my life for the rest of my life, I gotta get used to it. Sorry, but just because you say it, will not make people care. Telling people that they are addicted to alcohol will not make them quit alcoholism.
I'm back at my home, and it seems that my freedom has been restricted again. They dictated that the amount of hours I can go outside is one hour. Haha, as if. I'll keep going 3 hours and 5 hours. This chains does not bind me at all. So what are you going to do if I went outside for 10 hours?
I'm tired of all this bullsheep. If blood will spill and fire will burn, then let it happen. I don't care, and I never will. Eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth, and life for a life.
Those who harmed me will experience something worse than death, while those who are nice to me shall receive a blessing from the heavens.
Anyway I just realized I have a tendency to suddenly slam and annihilate everything that goes unexpectedly sensual. My rational mind instantly turns into rage mode and shuts down everything that triggered the response.
Today, at March 20, 2022, my Thinkpad laptop has completely broke. The screen is grey forever, and it's not even proceeding to the login screen. Welp, you tried your best, thanks for everything. I haven't even finished watching my anime lol, but now it's suddenly dead. Rest in peace.
And here I thought I was still able to write some shorts about the question "how can I trust you?". I guess I'll use my phone for everything now. What else is going to happen? My phone going to break? Haha, my life can't get any worse than this...
Oh that's right, since I'm using phone only now, I won't be able to publish my articles in notion anymore. No big deal, that's fine by me.
I just raised another flag so it's going to get even more worse. Yikes. I'll take some sleep now and pretend that this day is just a dream.
So the midnight after that, my stomach suddenly experienced intense and brutal pain that would have at least 7/10 rating in the pain scale. It happened two times, one during the midnight and one when I woke up. Each session lasting about 15 minutes of excruciating pain.
I believe it came from the food I eat which is rich in nitrogen, plus the extremely cold temperature, mixed with the hot burning rice. Both temperatures collided with each other that the nitrogen within my stomach became hyperactive and caused intense pain.
Gosh, I'll never going to eat nitrogen-rich foods on cold weather, plus I'll chill my rice before eating. That was a ducking nightmare — no it was worse than that.
So now I'm here on the plaza and for some ducking unknown reason again, there's an extremely cute person in front of me, but many meters away from me, who also dared to make an eye contact with me. What a distraction. Good thing they're gone, I'll keep writing.
Oh well... can my life get any worse than this? Of course it will! I just raised another flag and its keep getting worse haha. Nothing to worry about though, I'm pretty much immortal. The only thing I have to worry about is the things I'm going to do next.
At this rate, I'll just continue finding work from home jobs online, while writing some articles that either promote myself, showcase my abilities, or resolve my current problems. Ah crap, my stomach is in pain again, I think it broke a little bit.
How the hell am I supposed to concentrate from all this pain? I'm a human too, this sustained pain and losses accumulates in my mind and reduces my psychological and emotional energy. That's exactly why I wasn't able to exercise today.
Welp this is just a prelude to war, something big is still about to come. I gotta keep living.