I'm currently in a job fair right now. Yet I find myself unable to do anything. I'm sitting on an empty corner, writing an article and escaping from reality.
How funny. I even wrote those two previous articles for this moment. But here I am, still helpless and stupid as always, lamenting my own imperfections.
Everything I want is already in front of me, I just have to take it literally. But I can't. I have too much excuses.
I....don't want to show myself to anyone yet. I don't have any diploma or certificates. What am I going to tell them? That I'm a self-improvement writer and psychology enthusiast? Who would believe that? And who would be in their right mind to accept someone just because of that?
Those in their right mind will want proof. Proof... that I'm really the person I'm talking about. I don't have any proof except for my professionally published articles.
Since I don't brought a resume with me, don't want to show myself to anyone, and also don't want to use any of my demonic abilities, is there anything left for me to do here?
Ask for help? Huh... I don't know why that phrase existed in this language.
I am so weak, but I don't want to give up yet. There has to be something I can do. Something... only I can do.
Yeah I guess I should remain invisible for the rest of the job fair and go home empty handed. How saddening...
It seems... my vision is getting dark. I'm b seeing the world in a much darker shade. Every possibility seems to only lead into pain and failure. It feels as if everything will be the same regardless of what I do.
Not good, I need to get a hold of myself and take some good rests.