Today, I was feeling strange. I'm feeling incredibly restless. I feel as if I'm a lion who is forced to eat nothing except grass. I feel as if I'm an eagle locked inside a tiny bird cage. I feel as if I'm a snake swallowing its own tail. It was madness. It is total madness.
I tried to fix myself with the usual fix and consumed ten thousand webtoon chapters. It doesn't work anymore. I'm still restless, my mind is spiraling into madness. I tried to meditate but the next moment I suddenly found myself randomly walking few kilometers on the road.
I ended up in front of the beach, which is a few kilometers away from my home. It was evening, so the clouds were dark. The strong cold winds and the sight of large roaring waves made me wake up. I have no idea what the duck I'm doing there. Thus, I went home.
That was so impulsive. That was crazy. It isn't enough that I binged read webtoons, I also binged walk for more than an hour. What's going to happen next? This is madness, I'm telling you. I'm slowly losing my sanity. It won't be surprising if I ended up doing more impulsive things for no reason.
Good grief. What the hell is happening to me? I feel so thirsty, so thirsty for chaos and destruction. I feel like I'm being completely torn apart from the inside. It's as if I'm being completely burned by the flames. Gosh, I wonder what the hell is going to happen to me. I wonder what the hell is happening to me.
If this continues, it won't be long before my peaceful days will end. It won't be long until the waters of the unknown completely flood my comfort zone. Will it be a good thing? Will it be a bad thing?
I don't know.