That's the amount of webtoon chapters I've binged read today, consisting an entire webtoon and a half.
As I intentionally indulged myself in webtoons, I find myself drowning deep in the ocean of time and space, carried by the currents of pain and pleasure. It was deep and dark, the water of negativity is filling my body and mind.
Yet at the same time, a sense of clarity is pervading within my consciousness. I can clearly see what I'm doing and how it's affecting me. The water of negativity may have gotten inside my body and mind, but it never gets to my soul, my consciousness.
At that state, I've observed the following things — the longer I stay in that state, the less I'll be affected by the currents of pain and pleasure, the less I'll pass out or get sick from "drowning".
I've observed and observed, so closely that I was able to see the exact instants, the process in which the Consciousness, the peaceful Observer looking from the eternal domain, comes to the domain of time and space, use its Authority to give Commands according to its Will.
What a shocking revelation, well not exactly shocking since I already know what I'm doing deep inside, just don't have the exact mental image or logical abstraction to explain, but now I can see some of it now.
It seems the Ego doesn't have an Authority of its own so it cannot make its own decisions. It always constantly refers to the Consciousness, asking the Observer to come down and fulfill its request.
Unfortunately enough, the ego always takes silence as "yes" and does whatever it want if the consciousness doesn't respond.
This is exactly the reason why people are responsible for their own decisions. Although their body may be sending them emotional signals, the society pressuring them, and their mind constantly bothering them, they themselves, their Consciousness, is the only one who has the Authority to make any decisions.
Whenever I ask myself to do something in the form of thoughts, I rarely don't do anything about it. But if I asked myself to do something without thinking, my body automatically moves to do it. Isn't that interesting?
Another thing, when my parents asks me to do something, I don't think about it at all, I simply do everything I can in my power to complete the task without fail.
It's awesome how I always feel a surge of power and confidence when my parents tasked me to do something, as if I can do everything in the world. If they asked me to cut my hand and give it to them, I'll probably do it without hesitation, but if I tell myself to do it, I'll hesitate a lot only to end up not doing it.
I know the reason why, it's because I, as the eternal Consciousness, has given the Command to my entire being to follow and do whatever my parents says. I used my Authority to do it, such that nothing can stop me from doing it.
It's also the same reason why I don't speak much or reply to people in real life — I have given myself the Command to speak the least words possible in real life. And if I wanted to, I can revoke the Command by making another Command to stop it.
The Command always contain my Authority and Will, they can't be stopped. The consequences may be different, but the execution of the Command itself cannot be prevented. That is how we humans influence the environment and exert our power in the universe.
So far the only positive Commands I have given myself are:
The preexisting seemingly "negative" Commands I have given myself are:
Thus, the real reason why I wasn't able to go approach and talk to people outside is because I haven't issued myself any Command for it, so my body is automatically following the previous Commands — stay low and speak the least words possible.
Whenever I go outside I'm only following the command "Get sunlight" and not anything else, so of course I only focused on getting sunlight.
What about you? What positive Commands have you given yourself? What are the negative ones? Are you Willing to Command yourself to revoke all the negative Commands once and for all, right Here and Now?
If the Ego has Desires, then what does our Consciousness have? The Consciousness has "Will" which contains the direction, theme, and essence for every command. The Will is what our souls truly "want", which is often cannot be expressed with words or measured by materialistic standards.
What is our Will? The more we think about it, the more we're going to be confused, since it's a mostly spiritual concept, in which no words can accurately explain it. Fortunately, once a person is Aware or Awake enough, they don't feel the need to depend on Logical Frameworks to understand the world.
Perhaps our Will is to simply live, grow, and die. Perhaps it's about finding the essence of who we are. Regardless of our guesses, we cannot truly "Know" it, but we do feel and understand it somehow, just not in the way we think. Get it?
Willpower is what we think when making decisions. It is simply the ability of the Ego to convince and persuade the Consciousness to do its bidding and give it enough permissions to fulfill its request, so willpower doesn't necessarily contain the Will.
However, this doesn't mean that Willpower is bad, it's just inefficient compared to using one's Authority to issue a Command which actually contains your entire will and not just a part of it. Oftentimes, Willpower is used to forcefully satiate a feeling of lack and emptiness, which may achieve some material gains but only makes the person tired in the end.
Every willed creature is given an Authority to create and decide. The ego may tell them their bodily and social needs, but the ego can't decide by itself, so it always asks You, the Consciousness, the Observer behind the scenes, to make a decision.
Decide nothing and the ego will take it as an automatic "Yes", simply follow the urges of the body and the previous Commands. Should we read all the webtoons in the world? Should we spend our entire life in the dramatic cycle of pain and pleasure? Should we approach cute girls? Noo!! Everything except that!
Any half-assed decision doesn't have the power of your Authority, so it cannot become a command. It only flow as a mere "thought" around the mind until it fades away like any other thought. Any half-assed Authority won't be able to make a Command either, it can only serve to nullify or delay the requests of the Ego for a short while.
How do you know if your decision is a Command from your Authority that contains your Will, or simply an egoic impulse?
It's simple. If you start thinking about it without doing any actions Here and Now relevant to the decision, then it is not a Command.
Move you hand upwards for example. If you imagine or think yourself moving your hand, nothing is going to happen, but if you used your Authority, consciously or unconsciously, then your entire body, soul, and even the Universe itself will cooperate with you to execute your Command regardless of the results.
The Ego may control your thoughts, emotions, and mind, but it cannot control your body without your permission. And it always asks for permission — it has to keep asking your permission everytime it wants to move your body regardless of whether you're going to answer or not.
Indeed, like I said before, decide on nothing and it will automatically do something. Don't expect a child to do nothing and forget just because you didn't say anything to their request. On the contrary, they're going to do what they want even more!
When moving your hand or any part of your body, you don't think or write anything. You simply do it. There is no "How" or "Why", it just happens! That's how one can use their Authority to make automatic Commands and change the world they live in, without doing anything, but by simply letting their Will happen!
You don't necessarily have to tell yourself "I hereby Command myself to do this and that". No, it's more effective you don't consciously think or voice it in your mind but just simply do it. Do you also tell yourself "I hereby Command my legs to walk"? That's not how it works, you know best how it works.
As every person is an Authority themselves, they are able to function in multiple layers of reality simultaneously without knowing it.
Despite being Aware of the truths of this world, they still work, eat, and sleep like any other human beings, but in a more selfless, "egoless" way.
Just because one learned this or do that, doesn't make one exempted from working and sleeping. A human being must learn to peacefully and simultaneously move at multiple levels of reality — the finite and infinite, the simple and grand, the known and the unknown.
Just as how it's important to understand the truths of the universe, it's also as important to clean your room and make your bed. One cannot escape labor, they cannot stop "living" unless they are dead.
So as an Authority, it's naturally part of our Will to function properly in multiple levels of reality, such that our actions encompasses the finite, infinite, eternal, and temporal. We must understand our infinite nature through the lens of the finite, from the mortal life given to us.
Does indulging oneself in mindless pleasure help one operate in this Multilayered Reality? It can only satisfy one layer of reality — the egoic reality of the mind, but it doesn't help us with other layers of reality — preventing us from expressing our true potential.
The Layers of Reality, like one's Will is something that one cannot Know, but can easily feel and understand as if you have already understood it for a long time.
Perhaps a conceptual image would help you understand, but take it with a grain of salt. Never place complete trust in what you "Know".
Note that ego is time and time is ego, it always comes with the time-bound mind. It's not necessarily bad though.
Also if you mastered a higher layer of reality, then it's easier to perform on lower layers of reality. Those who mastered the Spiritual Layer automatically masters the other layers of reality.
Either way, every person automatically lives at all layers of reality simultaneously for maximum self-expression. It only depends on how much they mastered it.
At any moment in time, remember that you always have the Authority to change your life in any way you want right Here and Now — no one can stop you.
They aren't "automatic decisions", your hand doesn't automatically move on its own, it moves because of your Will. If you don't want it to move, it will not move, if you want it to move, it will move.
They aren't isolated actions made from your isolated consciousness, You are your Consciousness and they are the actions you made. Just because you didn't think about it, doesn't mean you're not the one who did it. Who's the one moving the hand? It's You! Do you know if it's the right decision or not? That question is yours!
Consciousness is not separate from you, nor it acts outside of you. It is You, the true essence of You. So is what you are doing, Commanding to yourself good or bad? That question is for you to answer!
The one who gives the command and the one who follows them, is the same You. You're not a mindless soldier, you're an intelligent creature expressing yourself to the universe.
"I sacrificed a lot for this article, worth it."
"Live your life like the Authority you are. You're more powerful than you can ever think."
"What will be your Command?"