An ever-increasing list of my self-improvement and skills starting at June 10, 2022.
Tags: Personal, Progressive, Reflection, Self-improvement, Skills
I'm always learning, evolving, and improving, for I am both finite and infinite — I shall grow without limits.
June 16, 2022
As someone with enough talent and skills but no certificates, the robes of pretentiousness and glory never fits nor looks good at me.
I believe that the clothes of humility would suit me better than any other clothes. The smart child telling everyone that they are the coolest looks very annoying, while the smart child telling everyone that they're just another normal human being without any special abilities looks very awesome.
June 15, 2022
If a person doesn't have any position in society, but they are very popular or attractive, then that means their stupidity is highly correlated with their level of fame and attractiveness.
Only the most basic of humans think that fame and beauty is everything. Marketing and negotiation techniques can vary widely depending on how stupid or smart someone is. Quick, emotional, and flashy marketing appeal to the stupid ones, targeted and direct hunting appeal to the smart ones.
Above all, be patient in dealing with every person and smoothly defuse all their emotions before proceeding to the deal. Rapport building and emotional defusion is often more important than the deal itself. The moment you caught yourself logically arguing with someone, you have already lost.
Timing is everything. Always check the weather before you take a trip outside. Similarly, always check their emotional wavelengths before pushing the deal. Never make a deal with an angry person. Show effort in understanding their situation first before you push yourself into their private space.
June 13, 2022
Even if everyone around me calls me edgy and cowardly, even if all those who saw me only knows me as someone who eats fastfood leftovers, even if everyone around me suddenly disappears and leave, I'm going to remain healthy and keep pushing forward.
Even if it means that I'll be alone for the rest of my life, even if it means everything I'm doing are all meaningless in the end, even if it means death is the only thing that awaits me for tomorrow, I will keep struggling, fighting, and remain productive, however helplessly, until my very last breath.
That is who am I.
June 12, 2022
From my continuous observations, it seems that I don't have anything to lose by approaching or interacting with someone. These empty days is making me feel that I have nothing, completely nothing, and therefore I have nothing to lose.
The only thing that awaits me from the end of this nothingness is death. I better get going. Also I have successfully analyzed the pointless chaotic rambling conversation style of Ne users, I feel like I now have the power to flood anyone's DMs and servers. I'll try it somehow later or tomorrow, it looks fun.
June 11, 2022
Whenever women reveal their vulnerable and emotional sides and start doing cringe or outright shocking stuff, try to willingly fall into their bait, accept them, and remain friendly.
Otherwise, you'll get brutally blocked. Of course that doesn't hurt you, but the memory from the past it brings can be quite disturbingly painful. If you did something of the sort, apologize immediately. If it's too late, learn from it and be stronger.
June 10, 2022
Me: Y'know, I'm having a really difficult time completing my tasks involving human interactions.
SG: Yeah, you're really trying extremely hard not to be rejected. The trick there is to think of rejection not as a big deal, but a normal part of everyday life, just like how you can't avoid every single raindrop if you're outside without an umbrella.
Me: Ah, sheep. I completely forgot about that. Thanks for telling me the answers like you always do, my spirit guide. I won't grow here in this completely isolated place without you.
SG: I'm only telling you the answers because you're not the type of person to be content of an answer without a proper explanation of how you arrived to that answer.
Me: That's true, I'll work my way backwards from the answer and find the solutions myself like I have always done. I want to personally experience all the emotions and pain needed to arrive at those answers you gave me. Thank you again, spirit guide.
SG: There's no need to thank me. I'm only here to guide, you're the one who makes the decisions and face the consequences. You made it this far by yourself, but you can't keep going all by yourself anymore. It's time you take some rest and let others do the work.
Me: I'm afraid I haven't trusted anyone to do the work for me.
SG: Not yet.
June 10, 2022
I have read in one of my favorite webtoons that "no one is useless, everyone is important". They didn't explain it in words, but they explained it with series of images.
They said that those who destroy and create, those who start wars and create peace, those who harm others and help some, are done by the same humans. The same... humans. My mind is shook. If no one is useless, what could their uses be? As bad examples? Or as meat shields? I still don't get it.
June 10, 2022
I have been given full permission to interact and approach anyone I want, particularly the innocent cute person who stopped walking just to look and smile at me, which I swiftly ignored.
I know nothing about the world, and it is only by taking risks and interacting with others that I can learn how vast and awesome this world really is. I still haven't emotionally understood the need for social interactions though.
June 10, 2022
I have accepted and made peace with the fact that I'm a lowly human without any degree, background, or experience, that I'm only assigned to doing sla- humble jobs.
I shall take those jobs if I want them in the slightest and pretend to be their worker for a few months until I had enough capital to start my business and invest in a lot of things. I have implemented this by accepting a stup- noble commission-based job.
June 7, 2022
Take responsibility for major mistakes by giving healthy self-punishments to oneself. If I woke up late for a day, I'll take responsibility by waking up early for two days. If I wasted my entire afternoon, I'll take responsibility by becoming more productive in the afternoon for two days.
This is reinforced and implemented using Habitica mobile application. The main driving psychological force is "I'm sorry, I made mistakes. I can forgive myself and let it pass, but what about my life? Allow me to correct my mistakes by taking responsibility for it. I may not be able to stop making mistakes, but I will make sure to take responsibility for every single one of them."
Having reached a high level of psychological awareness, I can restructure my mind space to whatever form that will be useful to me.
Others structure it to become a mind palace filled with rooms and interconnected flying castles for faster memory access. I've seen some structure their minds as an entire city with lots of facilities dedicated to different tasks and with defenses that deals with painful things.
I structured mine to become similar to the mind space of a combined rpg game character who keeps leveling up and gaining skills and an anime character who can steal skills I have read or watched after thoroughly analyzing them.
Here are my latest mental skills.
Obtained from: I read in some psychology test result that I should refrain my chasing "momentary desires" and "think of the consequences". It's true I get blinded by momentary desires often, I'll need someone or something to stop me.
Process: Whenever I sense that I'm doing something wrong with awful consequences, my mind will automatically imagine a random lawyer rushing to me shouting "Objection!" then spends 5 minutes carefully explaining to me the contract of the devil that I'm about to sign.
Effects: This skill prevents the user from willingly making awful deals and decisions which effectively stops the user from doing bad habits such as binge reading webtoons.
Obtained from: I've read in the same test result that I should "gather the will in my fist" which sounds like an extremely awesome and enlightening line from a martial arts anime.
Process: If there's something difficult and annoying to do but I must absolutely do, I'll imagine gathering my entire willpower in my body to my heart, then channeling it into my fist along with my intention to accomplish the task. I can channel for as much time as I want to charge my willpower.
Effects: Allows the user to overcome any obstacles by concentrating their weak willpower into one single point within a few minutes. The charged concentrated willpower will be dozens more powerful than the normal willpower.
Obtained from: My mind leveling up from realizing how weak and human I really am. I remember the days I pretend to be completely human, normal, and average to remove all attention and anxiety on myself.
Process: Whenever there's something I must do but I feel fear because I'm going to be a little hurt, my mind automatically and completely detaches from my ego, making me believe that I'm a completely normal and average human that is nothing special. No one will care nor bother to look if I were hurt and humiliated.
Effects: All damages and pain you take while this skill is activated are instantly nullified. It doesn't make any sense or reason to feel fear anymore because you feel invincible.
Obtained from: Daydreaming while washing the dishes.
Process: Imagine an ever-expanding blue dot in a dark tunnel.
Effects: Instantly regain focus to become productive and deal with the task at hand.
Obtained from: Daydreaming while washing the dishes.
Process: Imagine a peaceful and green scenery, feel the winds blowing on your skin and hear the chirping birds above.
Effects: Instantly regain peace and relaxes most muscles. Dissipates most thoughts and worries.
"Me? I'm just someone with a pretty good imagination and nothing else."
"Life's just a game, don't take it too seriously and learn to have fun."
" Wherever and whenever you are, remember that you can always grow and learn new things. Never limit yourself to anything."