A comprehensive list. A list of things I have to hide better or if I cannot hide, present them in a less suspicious way.
After countless online conversations and friendships, I have formed a decent list that shows what people dislike about me, and what type of people have greater intensity of dislike towards me. No, I will not explain any of my behavior. Judge and criticize in whatever way your imagination allows you.
When it comes to online strangers I just met, what the young people often unconsciously dislike is my inability to have a casual and friendly tone, to chat in short messages using funny language. For most normal people, they probably dislike how I forget and ghost them without warning. For mature people, they seem to dislike that I often chat by asking questions about them instead of having neutral boring conversations.
For mature women, they seem to dislike my weird vibe so they give instant rejection. For those who kept chatting despite my weirdness, they get somehow creeped out by my psychological observations even if they are accurate. Most people dislike creepy psychology, the part of psychology that treats people as mere data in a chart, as specimens to be experimented and observed. Most people dislike being analyzed in any way or form, without compliments.
For normal online people who have known me for a long time, what they dislike are my chaotic tendencies, my wild imagination that doesn't seem to discriminate between every possibility. They dislike how I keep giving them high level comprehensive advice without me actually following my own advice. They dislike how I'm so different from them and so different from the rest of humanity, that there's very little things they can relate with me. They dislike how I don't enjoy romance stuff as much as they do nor appreciate cute things as often as they do. They dislike how I'm a boomer who don't listen to any music at all, only listening to the empty silence pervading the universe.
Casual online people in group chats seem to dislike how I only posts and talk about myself, without participating in their little antics or reacting to what they fed their dog yesterday. They seem to dislike how I appear smarter than them, without considering every single one of their quick opinions.
For online people who are trying to help me, they seem to dislike how I always have grand ideas and daydreams without acting on them. They seem to dislike my lack of self-esteem and confidence, despite being fully capable and knowledgeable. They seem to dislike how I'm always being a pussy beta human who only barks with no bite. They seem to dislike how I'm using my terrible life situations as an excuse not to do anything to change my life.
For online people who admitted to be mentally ill, they seem to dislike me for not disliking them. They seem to dislike me for not being always online and not replying fast enough. They seem to dislike me for not being aggressive or crazy enough to get them excited. They seem to dislike how I'm always being too nice and not being honest without them. They seem to dislike when I say something a little bad to them.
When it comes to humans in real life, I don't interact with them that much — this is what they dislike the most. They seem to dislike how I don't often hear what they say and have to repeat speaking many times. They seem to dislike that I only speak to them in nods, shaking head, and shrugging shoulders. They seem to dislike how I can't still understand their local language despite living in their territory for more than three years.
Some people seem to dislike that I don't take leadership positions and act as a leader. Some people seem to dislike that I don't approach nor talk to them at all despite sneaking hundreds of glances at them. Some people seem to dislike that I give up at the earliest rejection, without any form of persistence or struggle. Some people seem to dislike that I don't show any emotional expression or say anything when I experience acute pain. Some people really dislike how I don't express myself or tell my needs at all. They dislike how I'm so good at chatting online but doesn't speak a single thing in real life.
The humans who are with me in classrooms seem to dislike how I don't remember any of their names. They seem to dislike that I don't call any of them by their names. They seem to dislike that I don't hang out with them as often as they want. They seem to dislike how I'm often busy with my phone reading ebooks. They seem to dislike that I don't raise my hands or participate in discussions when I know a lot of things. They seem to dislike that I don't care about my grades or correcting my grades as much as they care about it.