For some reason, they all coincidentally disappeared yesterday even tho they don't know each other. And I can't confirm the cause from their side because I didn't give it all on my side. Only if I did everything perfectly can I confirm the mistakes from their side. Truly, there are a lot of limitations when moving as a human.
Well, it's not all that bad. The force was enough to violently push me out of this wretched cycle. Now, I shall take this time to resolve the problem of intention once and for all.
For now, I only seem to have temporarily resolved the problem because of sheer willpower and circumstances that violently woke me up from the fantasy land. In the following days, I'll probably return to my hazy foggy mind with scattered intention. I do not want to return to that place anymore. Today shall be the day where the Problem of Intention that has plagued me for decades will become a Solved Problem.
I said that but I frankly have no idea how to begin...
Why do we get easily distracted and confused, forgetting our original intentions every time we open a door or think of something new? And what can be done about it?
I want to become one of those dedicated humans, whose patience and passion are second to none, who are always ready to abandon and ignore everything for the sake of their projects. That's right, I want to be so completely devoured by the flames of passion and productivity that I have no time for other thoughts and fantasies.
It's unfortunate since my original passion is Social Insanity Curiosity; that is, to relentlessly hunt gently approach and interrogate interview hundreds of people, both real life and online, until I can completely tear them open and devour them understand them. That passion is bound by dozens of chains so I cannot practice it at all, not until a few years later.
Therefore, I'll have to create another passion that does not involve any interactions with humans. Most of the chains don't apply to me when I'm alone and not interacting with others, perhaps I can exploit this vulnerability take advantage of this opportunity to be hyperfocused on a single subject. After all, hyperfocus is one of the abilities that an autistic human like me should possess. I may not be free enough to obsess over people, but I am definitely free enough to obsess over a subject. Thus, I have decided to obsess over arcane texts, not only studying them but also practicing their techniques and methods every single day. In this way, a year should pass quickly while I develop my magical techniques. If I cannot obsess over flesh and blood yet, then I shall obsess over vegetables and leaves. The most important thing is to be flexible.
That's right, I think Obsession will be the one to solve my Problem of Intention. This solution may not work for sane and healthy people, not that they need it anyway since this problem shouldn't bother them too much.
After all, Obsession is one of the most beautiful forms of art. A true artist of obsession does not let themselves get consumed with the flames, rather they are also obsessed with patience and elegance. They are like snipers, who are so obsessed with their target that they do not mind staring at them from afar for several days, without shooting until the time is right.
Someone who is truly obsessed with all their heart and soul, does not only care about the size and strength of the flame, they also ensure that the flames last for an eternity. Thus, they take care of themselves, get proper rest, and eat properly, all for the sake of their obsession.
That's right, the solution is simple.
I just need to descend to the void, to plunge so deeply into the heart of abyss. Deeper, deeper, and deeper, until there's nothing else except me and my subject of obsession.
Thus, I hereby declare the millennium prize Problem of Intention, to be PROBLEM SOLVED.