Tags: Personal, Edgy, Short, Self-Improvement, Self-Encouragement, Unformatted
I'm waking up later than usual. My days are becoming less productive and I'm starting to feel like a feather being taken by the wind, as if I'm a piece of wood floating on the stream.
However, I had enough. This has to stop.
I wonder, are our personalities fixed since we were born, or are we able to choose our personalities as we grow?
Not that it matters. Today, right here and now, I have decided what kind of person I want to be — I want to be a Sage, a learner who remains completely calm and determined even when the world is ending. I am a Seer who desires nothing but the truth, who follows nothing but the truth.
I am a slave of no one, and I'm going to be in control of everything, to conquer everything. I'll start from myself and take control of all my biological impulses, thoughts, emotions, and everything of my unconscious and subconscious.
I do not need any hope, meaning, or purpose to keep moving forward and remain control of myself, because it is my will to live and reach my dreams. It doesn't matter what my thoughts, emotions, or universe tell me anymore, because I'll keep moving forward no matter what.
Although I do have some demonic blood within me, which gives me power over chaos — I will not let it take control of me for the sake of power, rather, I will conquer it and make it my own, and the same thing will happen to everything that tries to control me.
There's no greater shame for an intelligent will creature than to willingly let themselves be enslaved by their own emotions and desires, and blindly submit to those who are the same species as them.
I admit that I have did this countless of times in the past, but I will not it happen again. I'll take control of every single part of my life, down to the minute details of my fate and emotions.
My name is tRanChor, and this is my life. I am the only one who is in control.
The pinnacle of enlightenment is the one with maximum self-control and mental fortitude. For me to achieve this, I'm going to assimilate all the beliefs of Buddhism (Enlightenment), grounded in the foundations of Taoism (Unification).
Using my ability to absorb traits of fictional characters I have read and watched, I'm going to assimilate Lucas Traumen's mental fortitude of surviving hell for 4000 years, plus absorb Eren Yeager's resolve to reach freedom even if it means taking away everyone else's freedom.
Slowly but surely, I will extend my control within myself, through the environment, and finally, to the whole world and universe.
However, I am fully aware that any sense of self-control anchored from within the self, for the sake of the self are just mere illusions of the mind. Thus, I'll anchor my self-control to my ever-consuming desire to reach my dreams and conquer everything for the sake of the next generations.
Even if I were to lose myself, my self-control shall never fade nor disappear, because it has been anchored to something bigger than myself — for my dreams and for humanity.
Rather than being controlled by my emotions and desires, I'll take control of them myself, so I can use them for much more meaningful work, even if it means pushing beyond my limits and straining my soul.
I repeat, I am tRanChor, and I am going to become a Sage. I will reach the pinnacle of self-control and use it to take control of everything else in this universe.
And my journey, begins now.
"Maximum discipline and self-control every second of my life? Challenge accepted!"