A speedy analysis of my current situation.
So yesterday, some extrovert approached me and offered me to work for him, just to capture him using megaphone on an election campaign for a specific candidate on market.
Of course, I have nothing to do, and I was extremely bored so I accepted the offer. If it was me years ago, I would have been very anxious to accept it.
It was fun, I got 2 dollars for advance payment as well. And my business partner said I'll get the real salary once we have shown the video the next morning.
Today is the day, we went to the office to show the video and get the real salary, but of course, they respectfully declined.
What the hell are we trying to do anyway? We suddenly volunteered to help do an election campaign for someone when we're not even real residents or registered voters of this area.
So yes, I got ducking suddenly got interrogated by a government agent about my whereabouts and family. How ducking annoying. To add cold water to the burned area, they ducking blamed and complained about me not knowing the full name of my relatives. Good ducking grief.
Not wanting to get rekt without a fight, I increased the speed of my conversation responses to catch up with them, where I feel as if our swords are perfectly clashing together. Further, I confused them with unfamiliar logic and made them believe that the situation is not what they think it is.
Getting tired, they ended the interrogation, then told me that they're just doing that because they cannot help nor pay anyone who is not a complete resident of the area or a registered voter.
So they made another proposal, that they would try to help me by using my other relative who is a registered voter as a medium to pass the help from me, which is even more ducking annoying, for three reasons:
Do I really look that poor and desperate to you? I even asked them about the "program" but they said that they'll just talk it with my relative. Just what the duck are they trying to hide?
They want me to bring my relative who is a resident of this area and is a registered voter at Monday so they can pass the "help" to them and that the relative will pass the "help" to me. Oh gosh. I'm only here for ducking money and not so my family will get involved with legal matters.
The only reason I attended the second time is that they paid me an advance payment, and here I thought I'll get some good money, but instead, I got ducking interrogated and told to bring my relative to the table.
They could have spoke more gently and pretend to care about my emotions, but why the hell do they have to ducking piss me off? Yare yare daze.
These annoying extroverts I'm facing keep repeating things to me, as if I don't understand or hear it and they will endeavor to repeat the same thing three ducking times in a row just to ensure the deal. Seriously.
According to my analysis, these people are an assertive — accommodator hybrid type, which will not stop speaking and repeating things until they are ducking sure that the other side would understand. Being an accommodator, they will assume that the other side doesn't agree or is angry if they are silent.
And they are right, which makes it even more annoying. "Alright, the deal is made, let's not plant anger here eh? We just want to explain to you so we can help you."
Bruh. They're like telling mad people to calm down, which only add fuel to the flames. If they really want to help me, then why does their tone and speaking style says "I don't know who are you, yet you volunteered to do some work and want to be compensated, what the duck are you expecting?"
Geez. This is a waste of anger. Honestly, I am not obliged to do what they say and bring my relative there. I can just ghost them whenever I want. I've already got $2 anyway. There's no need for me to go through all the trouble and risk just to get some money.
But of course, it's another thing when it comes to experience. It's always worth all the trouble and risk just for the experience.
My life's motto is just like Subaru's, "make sure you see things until the very end before you start over again". I want to see how the story will end, no matter how awful, crazy, or brutal it has become.
I will not stop watching the anime just because I'm afraid that the protagonist will die next episode considering the situation.
I will not stop reading the webtoon just because the protagonist unexpectedly died.
I will not look away just because I'm experiencing second-hand cringe.
Whatever happens, I'll complete the story. I'm going to see the ending. I'll ride through every consequences and see what really lies at the end of the rainbow.
Update: Nevermind, I'll chicken out. Still not crazy enough just to disturb someone just for money. Haha too much drama just to run away at the end. That's life I guess — my life.
My life's very busy ever since I expanded my possibilities and horizons. I'm busy in a good way though, everything I do has meaning and value, so even if I seem to be working very hard, I'm enjoying it.
It seems that the more possibilities and choices you have in your life, the brighter and clearer the path will be when all those possibilities are combined into one.
As long as we're open to new possibilities and experiences, the lights (opportunities/hope) that disappear will easily get replaced, and we'll never succumb to the darkness.
Right now, I'm involved with a secret cult-themed scientific organization. I have a super cool personal server which I can expand. I have lots of interesting online friends.
Some online cool guy invited me to accomplish his dreams similar to mine. Some online gal invited me to expand my spiritual circuits and activate my DNA. Some extroverts invited me to make money in real life. Some online gal invited me to do marketing to make money online.
If I'm tired and don't want to interact with people, I can write articles to improve my skills. I can read ACT and CFT ebooks to help me live courageously. I can self-promote my articles online to help more people.
And if I got really tired, I can listen to relaxing music on my headphones while reading webtoons. I can explore the apps I downloaded in my phone that I haven't opened even once. Or I can just comfortably sleep on my bed to regain some energy.
Whatever I do, everything has value and meaning. Regardless of what direction or path I take, I am always moving forward to success, one step at a time.
This is how you combine endless possibilities to one possibility — to happiness and success.
Today I managed to do 100 pushups within 30 minutes without much fatigue or effort. Pretty cool, I remember the time where I'm having difficulties with just doing 20 pushups haha.
Just a week ago, I have completed another awesome ebook "Never Eat Alone" — which greatly boosted my understanding of social situations and the importance of authenticity and generosity.
Just a month ago, I managed to get complete possession of my father's paypal account so I will no longer worry about losing my load for many months. From now on, I will always have unli calls and texts plus gigabytes of mobile data.
And now, I am truly alive, healthy, and happy, though still imperfect, vengeful, and weak. It seems that I have received the first fruits of my labor and have considerably improved my situation.
I am grateful for this life and this day, but my life isn't over yet, so I'll keep moving forward, talk with more people, and improve myself every passing day.
I will make sure, that every second that passes, will be spent getting closer to my dreams.
"Wait, isn't this the same guy who was binged reading webtoons and having existential crisis just a few days earlier?"
"If you know exactly what you want in life, having more choices will give you enourmous advantage."
"The people around you may know what's the best for you, but only you knows what you really want."