I have woken up, from a long nap. My day has been unproductive, but I still have time for left. My mind feels clear as day and I can think more precisely than before.
Now, let's see what I can do.
It's getting difficult for me to stay sane, alive, and energetic within this environment that feels like it's trying to suck out my energy alive and possess me. My boundaries are getting weaker and my average wake up time is getting farther each passing day.
Thus, today, April 11, 2022, I have devised a solution to end all instances of unproductive days in the future.
Because I am mostly alone in my life without no one to rely to, nor am I willing to trade any part of my soul or freedom for the sake of money, preserving my energy for important tasks and dedicating my time for my present, as well as my future, becomes extremely difficult.
I may be able to manage and survive healthily even with this extreme difficulty and misfortune in my life, but I must admit that weightlifting my entire life every second for whole 16 hours feels a little tiring at times, even when I've already adapted and grown accustomed to it.
So this solution then, tries to eliminate excessive work times by giving up at least 6 hours of our free lives to habits and consistency. This doesn't mean that we'll fully become a robot who cannot live or think outside of habits and schedule, it just means that we're going to make our lives completely guided by time, not always trying to outrun it like we're doing today.
Our habit hours will start from the very morning we wake up, to 1 PM in the afternoon. From that time onwards until dinnertime, this will be our favorite experimental period where we can do whatever we want and test out new things, after dinnertime comes the falling action, where we're going to end our day and write a list of things we're going to pass for tomorrow.
Of course, a time table alone like this never works, so we're going to apply certain skills I learned these past several days.
We're just going to be just a little bit more serious from now on and use [Dimension Break] skill whenever it feels like our body or mind doesn't listen to us.
The [Dimension Break] skill is a skill I learned during one of my productive days where I want to wake up early but couldn't, so I imagined all the things I want in life and my dreams, compressed them into one single, swift and decisive action, then punched a hole through this dimension to give me a boost of energy and wake me up.
Think of it as an explosive martial arts move that's used to break out from ropes and shackles — you contract the necessary muscles in your body like a stretched rubber band, them within a single instant, you unleash the contracted muscles and gain a significant boost of kinetic energy to the associated body part.
So technically speaking, this skill is a part of Ren series in Aura Control, and its the first skill I learned that has been combined from the depths of my anime-style imagination and the concepts from Oriental-based spirituality.
(Hehe look at that, my imagination has gone so wild that it can now take the forms of real-life techniques and concepts. With this, I've just gotten 200% more powerful, but that's not enough for me to reach my dreams. For your information, I'm currently integrating Buddhist philosophy, Oriental concepts, and Anime techniques into realistic practical knowledge using my crazy imagination.)
Just another skill I learned from using Zetsu every second of my life. The information provided by our surroundings are vast, huge and most of the time, overwhelming, so our minds have filters to only focus on what's important to us. But I thought to myself, are these information filters really necessary?
The entire world is important to me, and to learn Zetsu, I have to see the world for what it really is, to become aware not only of myself and my thoughts, but also my surroundings and senses as well. So every single line on my vision, every photon of light, and every grain of dust is important to me, because all of them, collectively, makes up my "perceived reality".
I can't just ignore something just because I don't like it, can I? Ignorance is the root of misinformation and mistakes, I'll start by not ignoring what I see, sense, and feel.
Thus, I learned another aura skill [True Sight] where I become completely aware of the things in my line of vision and notice immediate changes that's happening in my environment. It's also because of this skill that I was able to focus on the bullet hell game "Soul Knight" and avoided the overwhelming amount of projectiles which led to my inevitable victory.
There's an optical psychological phenomenon that literally blurs the vision and senses of the individual whenever they experience sudden stress and anxiety, I call this — "Motion Blur", though someone probably already documented and made a better name for that, haha.
My skill [True Vision] prevents this Motion Blur effect on my eyes by seeing things for what they really are, accepting them for how they are, without any information filters and judgement on my part. I'll use this same skill to implement proper decision making concerning the implementation of this consistent and habitual routine.
I believe this much skills are enough preparation for now, I'll leave the rest of the future to my future self. I believe in him.
While I'm at it, I'll list and enumerate the courses I want to learn and master within this current month. Since I'm a dropped-out, all these courses will be self-taught.
I have found that I am seriously lacking in real training, knowledge, and experience when it comes to interacting, talking, and forming relationships with my fellow humans. Thus, I would like to start a serious and real course dedicated to improving my interpersonal skills.
The goals I want to achieve within this course are:
Start and create a wonderful conversation for both sides that will actually help me get the things I want without appearing like an insincere jerk.
Establish and maintain working relationship with clear standards and expectations, such that both sides will be able to get what they want and freely express themselves.
Understand what it takes to build a fully functioning community of like-minded individuals towards a pursuit of a common goal or purpose.
I'm planning to learn this course by writing articles about it, building on my previous knowledge and guesses first, then correcting and improving them over time to become like a credible body of knowledge, that will even transcend those information that you can learn from books. This is just how I learn things.
For those who have read my last Tranchorian Shorts on my blog "Identity Stacks", they will know that first and foremost, I am a very spiritual type of person, but not a religious nor traditional type of person. It makes sense then, that I would invest a significant amount of my time on digesting and applying spirituality content considering how my spirit guide tremendously contributed to my self-improvement and article writings.
Spirituality for me is like an unadulterated, applied, and practical version of Religion, which doesn't care much about your beliefs nor where you're headed after you die. It only focuses on the true reality of things, that one may even say it's one of the governing sections in philosophy and metaphysics.
I would like to advance my current knowledge in Transcendental Spirituality, towards a more practical, realistic, and grounded version of spirituality that can be applied to every action in life. Remembering how there's movies about martial arts and magic that involves heavy use of spirituality, usually in the form of "chi", "chakra", or "ki", I want to synthesize my knowledge with that type of spirituality.
Therefore, in this specific course, I would like to achieve the following:
Prove/Disprove the existence of Auras or Life Force/Energy, plus the manipulation of the aforementioned concept, using unconventional scientific method and practical means.
Understand and gain insight towards the credibility and application of the so-called aura channels, magic veins, and chakra spots.
Connect the dots and see the possibility of using supernatural level of focus and control to do supposedly supernatural manipulation of matter or energy.
There's a lot of unknown variables here, but like I always say — nothing is impossible. Looks like this is going to be fun.
Before I would go to sleep, I want to reaffirm to myself that the purpose of building consistent habits and reason isn't about restricting my freedom nor turning me into a robot, but to preserve my energy to do the things I really want to do while maintaining my health and sanity at the same time.
From now on, I will not be using an alarm when sleeping, but rather, I will rely entirely on myself, trusting my future self that it will wake me up on time for me to live for another day. I will not be fighting nor racing against time, but it will be my guide, telling me the things I should pass for next time and the ones I should do for now.
That's it for today. I'll pass the things I want to do for tomorrow and go to sleep for now, because I want to be in good enough condition to greet Tomorrow.
"Life's but a day's work. Live each day with patience and determination, then you'll see how your story unfolds."
"Whatever happens, walk like a king, smile like a winner, and think like a monk."
"Those who face reality for long enough, shall remember those that are truly important."