Man, I'm absolutely fucking cooked. I said yesterday and today that I would spend the day reading and writing. But what did I do? Yes, Roblox and manwhas all day long. I think I spent almost my entire day looking at my phone lmao. Not good at all.
I need to learn to write articles again without posting them anywhere. I'm always posting my monologues on the server or on chatgpt that it's difficult to think without my phone. This day is a complete failure from the beginning to the end. Maybe the fact that I was still able to write in the last second made my day a tiny bit better.
But seriously. The FOMO games are incredibly addictive and dangerous on their own. No wonder the stock market and crypto stuff are extremely dangerous and tempting. If even fomo games alone without money makes people go crazy, just how much it would mess their mind if it involves their entire life savings?
I still have this 6 gigabyte game that I have downloaded but haven't installed yet. I don't want to install it because I fear that it would simply become another addiction. Hmm now that I think about it, nothing much would really change even if I do install it. Sigh. That means it's pointless to think about it in the first place.
I'm really losing my mind. The amount of self-loathing and gore I imagined today is really high. But I still need to prepare my clothes tomorrow because we'll be riding a plane and going to our hometown in 2 days. It's the obligatory new episode in life that happens every 4 years of a person's life. I can't even imagine what kind of bullsheep I have to go through this time. What's worse is that I have to deal with the upcoming pinning ceremony that would probably happen after I have already boarded the plane.
Seriously man, I need sleep. I need a hundred thousand hours of sleep. The problem with bad decisions is that the game doesn't end or restart when I make one, instead I have to live through it and experience the consequences of my own foolishness
It feels like I'm breaking apart from all sides. My productivity and routine is almost non-existent. It really is maddening. Trying to live your life while being completely aware that you can change the entire world anytime you want yet remaining as a compliant slave to the system is really insane. I feel like I'm really at the edge of the cliff now. It feels like something big and annoying would happen any moment and I would be completely surprised and unprepared.
What can I do? The only thing to do right now is to sleep. And if I ever had any dreams, I will go to bed in my dreams and fall asleep there as well.
Hm I feel like it's not a good idea to keep swimming in the pool of regrets and self-loathing. Who would have known? Perhaps it would be more fun to swim in the ocean of chaos and uncertainty instead even if it feels more overwhelming. This pool has become too stagnant and dirty to use. If I'm always thinking about what I could have done in the past, I won't be able to think about what I can do today. I must always remember that whatever happened in the past is less than 1% of what will happen in the future. The events of the past have been too limited and small for me, I cannot dwell there forever. It is time for me to go out and find a new dwelling. No, I will not use the phone everytime I eat today. I will bask myself in complete silence.
I'm at the airport now. The amount of stupid restrictions and things not allowed are quite overwhelming and annoying. It's really important to have clean or new slippers before the day of going to the airport. Finding your clean socks or buying new ones are necessary too, you won't believe just how many socks you have that doesn't have a matching pair. There are so many stupid signs inside the plane but none of them give specific important details. They say that food is not allowed but candies or retail food packed in sealed plastic seems to be allowed. They say no cables or extensions are allowed but chargers seem to be allowed.
Although the airport signs are so many and filled with words, they are repetitive at best and too vague at worst. None of the airport signs told me thus there're actually three types of baggage: Hand-carry of a few kilograms, Carry-on of 7 kilograms on top or below your airplane seat, and Check-in baggage of 20-23 kilograms inside the hidden compartment on the plane. Most restrictions apply to both hand-carry and carry-on, but there are fewer restrictions to check-in baggage. However, low-cost flights don't have check-in baggage unless you paid extra so be careful. Additionally, lost-cost flights more often than not require you to lift your own carry-on baggage to the top, so you will require a functioning hand, arms, and shoulders with enough strength to lift it. If you are personally leading the flight, then you might as well check the website for all requirements and restrictions, so you can check for additional local restrictions and ensure that your bag sizes are lower than what's stated.
Do not forget that all your luggage including your body will be scanned two times in X-ray scanners, one in airport entrance and one before entering the boarding hall. Ensure that your valid ID and airplane ticket are accessible and secured at all times, they will be checked three times in the airport at different times. My valid ID was expired but they didn't notice it, probably because they were only checking if the name in the airplane ticket matches the valid ID. The signs all said that no liquids greater than 100ml allowed in both hand carry and carry on, yet my large tumbler that was completely filled with water in my carry on luggage, managed to avoid detection somehow. The sign also says no canes or umbrella allowed, but I somehow managed to bring in my small umbrella inside my hand carry bag. Good thing I didn't bring my large sword umbrella, it would have been immediately confiscated even if I proved that it's an umbrella lol. I'm still surprised that no one manually checked the contents of hands on baggage, is the security at cheap airports this lax? Anyway they say powerbank may be brought in the plane but not allowed to use, tho I don't even have one.
Damn of course, there's an obligatory crying baby inside the airplane. It won't be called a public flight without one. By the way, it's my first time seeing a digital control panel for flight attendants inside the plane, it contains a lot of information and buttons about the plane. It's interesting that it's placed in front of the seats for everyone to see. They could have hidden somewhere though. Anyhow, the plane is now moving and turning around. It's about to fly. I can see some mist coming out of the top side inside the plane, it's probably an air conditioner. The plane has turned around the runway two times for a few minutes now but it's still not flying. This is so different from the airplane flight simulator I've played before.
I've already boarded a plane before but I forgot about the details and restrictions because I wasn't writing articles at that time. Now that I'm a writer, I ought to write about all my special rare experiences so that I may not forget them when I have to experience them again. I know that this is a low-cost flight but it's still quite disappointing that there's no tablet behind the seats and no wifi inside the plane. You're not allowed to use mobile data on the plane because of airplane mode by the way. Holy sheep, the plane is flying, the feeling of my seat going vertical, the feeling of slight weightlessness on my body, the weird feeling of the insides of my body, and the EARS, OF COURSE THE EARS! They're feeling weird again, I hope they won't be as painful as my last flight before. Damn I can see the tiny islands below. Too bad, I'm not on the window seat so I can't see much. I wanna see the fluffy clouds below. The flight tracker app that installed on my phone before going to the airport is useless now, there's no internet connection inside after all.
Surprisingly, the lavatory or restroom inside the plane is right in front of the plane, with its door directly adjacent to the left of the crew's door. Damn! The sun is even more blinding up high. My ears are popping left and right, sometimes my hearing gets better, sometimes my hearing gets worse. Haha I really love how the lavatory is in front of the plane, you can directly see who is going to the restroom to poop! Hm the food cart is being moved from the front to the behind of the plane, it's probably so much more expensive than the food inside the airport. I wonder if there are free snacks in a one hour flight? I doubt so, this airplane and this country is so poor that I think it can only afford a single plastic or styrofoam cup of water for each passenger. Though there's higher chance that they won't do it at all.
I wonder if the crew only door directly leads to the pilot navigation room. Hm I don't think so, it probably contains some plane engineers in a cozy room with nice beds, seats, and tv. What's even more mysterious is that in front of the seats to the right, there's a wall that covers the front and there's a blue green curtain that covers the side, creating the illusion of a small semi room. They seem to be sneaking snacks and hot water inside and outside that room, I wonder what really goes on there.
Ah I just remembered, there's always a life vest below the passenger seats for the unlikely but fun event where the plane crashes on water. To use it, one needs to secure it to their body by using the mini seatbelt on the life vest, then they pull the pin for automatic inflation of the life vest, or you can also manually breathe air into it if you're a fun person. They say that pulling the automatic pin is theft, probably because it contains expensive helium air that is irrecoverable when used. I wonder if I'll be able to use that life vest at some point in my life. There's also the yellow gas mask that drops from above the seats when another fun thing happens. You may hold your hands on luggage on your thighs or place it under the seat of the person in front of you. It's important that the way isn't blocked so others can panic safely when fun stuff happens. The seats can be small so if the middle seater uses both hand rests (which they deserve to), you may unconsciously stick out your elbow in the small pathway in the middle of the plane. Flight attendants and pooping people constantly come and go it's not a good idea to stick your elbow out, or they might unleash a barrage of poop to you if you accidentally make them slip.
There's a strange glowing USB port on the bottom behind the seats of people. It's probably a charging station, or secret USB port connected to a hidden computer that will allow them to access all your files without your knowledge when you try to charge there. They say charging is only allowed mid flight, not within departure or landing. Hmm I speculate that there might also be a lavatory or another room on the farthest back of the plane, though there's no way I can verify that at all. The writing in front of me says that table must be stowed for taxi, takeoff, or landing... What does taxi mean? Does the plane also functions as a taxi in its part time job? Hmm I can guess that taxi refers to the time where passengers leave or enter the plane. By the way, I didn't know that airplane staff are collecting donations for UNICEF stuff now. I don't trust these popular donations at all. I'd rather pay donations to homeless children who would give most of their donations to their abuser and use the rest for buying crude and illegal drugs.
Woah I didn't know there's a cute flight attendant here? It's my first time seeing her inside the plane. She was probably sleeping inside the crew only room or something. I guess there's 3 flight attendants in total for each flight. Hmm I should really bring a portable mini wifi router next time, something that's compatible with flying planes and retains strong signal across countries. I think there's always at least one foreigner in each flight, where most of them can speak in English language. This particular foreigner in our flight reminds me of the viral YouTube video with the title "I am the ugliest woman in the world". Not to be rude but she looks extremely similar to the person in that video. She looks like she has been through a hundred thousand hells all by herself. She probably takes a lot of medications and stuff they causes her to go to the lavatory every 5 minutes.
I'm now looking at the documents and flyers that are present on the back of every seat. There's a bag for airsickness but I don't even know what airsickness is. It's probably something similar to seasickness. But what's this bag for? Is it like a breathing bag for those with asthma or something? Or a vomiting bag? It looks like thin paper so I don't think it would be able to handle vomit and bile either. Ooh it says in this passenger briefing care that one should use silent mode and no voice calls are allowed. How strange, I'm pretty sure I've seen some movies where they call people from inside the flying plane. Hmm there's a brace for impact image here they shows people ducking their head and covering their neck or head with their hands. I wonder when will this be used? Can you really survive a plane crash with this brace for impact method?
Interestingly, there are four exits inside the plane: the main cabin door, the two middle door, and the backdoor. There are three exits near the back, they're probably first to escape in a plane crash. Ooh there are fun inflatable slides in the plane! It would be so fun to use them. Huh... there's also an inflatable raft? And you're not allowed to bring your shoes and luggage at all! Surprisingly, you can't also bring your luggage even if the plane was forced to land on land that's not an airport. Hmm the meals on board are as expensive as always, each one costing at least one day of a worker's minimum wage. They're all pre-ordered though, so you cannot just suddenly ask for a meal when you're already inside the plane without any preorders. Nvm, I just realized that the Meals on Board are different from pre-ordered meals, you can always order meals on board in international flights. So wtf is a pull apart bread? It's my first time seeing a weird bread name. Is it like something like a bread with sticky mozzarella inside so you pull apart to see its stickiness? Hmm I should try that someday just for the experience.
Sigh. I didn't bring a single slipper with me, no, rather my mom prevented me from bringing slippers that are freshly cleaned from chicken poop. Guess I'll have to buy slippers the first thing when I arrive at my hometown. I wonder what's going to happen to my summer OJT classes, it was supposed to be my enrollment there for two days, so the enrollment ends tomorrow. But we can't cancel the non-refundable airplane tickets, so I'll miss out on the unpaid internships at three different faraway places. Maybe that's secretly a good thing, probably not. I'll be cooked and interrogated in school the moment I return from my hometown. Well that's their problem, I'm only complying out of respect to my family and society. Whether I pass, fail, or repeat a thousand times, doesn't really matter that much.
Hmmm the flight attendants are forcing people to raise and open all passenger windows of the plane for the sake of landing? I wonder why, what's even so important about those windows? I'm pretty sure the flight attendants, crews, and pilots have their own window seats. Surprisingly, my ears didn't hurt at all during the entire flight. It only felt weird. When I was little, the flight made my ears hurt all the time. So this is the capital of our country, there's so many large buildings everywhere. The landing of a plane is always impressive. One wonders how some people can make these giant flying machines of steel moving at high speeds not explode when meeting the ground in extreme friction. Even I was rarely able to land a plane in the flight simulator game without exploding. Btw everyone is suddenly using their phones, they must have suddenly turned off the airplane mode. When did they get permission to turn off airplane mode? Aren't they worried that the plane might explode because of what they did?
Hm did the airplane narrator just say "connecting flights"? What are thoooose? Why would people go from one flight to another, when they can just ride a plane that directly takes them to their destination? They're going to double their expenses at that rate. Well maybe there's no direct flights at all and those who take connecting flights are rich or desperate enough to begin with. The plane has stopped moving but passengers are still not allowed to leave, I guess I'm going to turn off airplane mode too and use my internet. Damn I almost forgot about my hands on bag when I was leaving the plane. Now we're riding the airport bus instead of using the airport plane bridge, how inconvenient. After getting out from the bus, we're now at the luggage hall where there are hundreds of people waiting for their baggage, yet there's not a single baggage circulating in the conveyor belt. No one knows how long we would wait here. Maybe our check in baggage was already sent to another obscure country.